We'll Find Our Way
Where do our long-held visions, passions, and dreams come from? If you’re like me, they’ve never been in question. From the moment I picked up a guitar and started a band, it had a noticeable pull over my consciousness.
In an overstimulated society with instant access to almost everything, concentrating for extended periods of time can be challenging. Yet here I am, nearly 23 years later, still sitting at the computer for 14 hours straight, trying to crack the code on a verse/chorus.
People wonder where all the energy comes from, and while I don’t think there is any lack of prana in the universe, it does seem there is much more available after “working” on things I love for extended periods of time.
As a spiritual scientist, I have been particularly fascinated by Life for quite some time. I moved through my 20’s after my dad died and became a dad myself at 25, all to notice a decade+ later at 36, it’s quite rare to remain equally passionate about your big outlandish dreams at 40 as it was at 20.
I am fortunate the grinding gears of human existence have not only failed to take my energy, but have only served to strengthen my heart mind and expand my soul.
The childlike sense of wonder for all I love is as vibrant as ever, and the same emo songs I listened to in high school are blasting on the radio at the coffee shop as I write this.
Maybe it all feels like destiny because my dad made it a point to teach me that “can’t” is a 4-letter word, before continuing to recite George Carlin’s 7 dirty words bit.
Today I am feeling very grateful.
Grateful my big outlandish dreams remain unchanged and even more grateful that I have acquired the discipline necessary to achieve them. Perhaps if I play diligently enough, I'll find a little luck along the way?
Some dreams, and many things in general, should not be vocalized. It’s better to hold your tongue. So while I can’t let you in on everything here now, sound is at the center of it all.
Here are the stats:
I have 5 solo songs on streaming platforms, and my new band just released our first song ("we’ll find our way") last Wednesday.
Ryan Robby has 7 monthly listeners.
all the pretty ppl has 23 monthly listeners.
There is not one single short video on TikTok, Instagram, or YouTube for any of the released music, and like most other producers, songwriters, and recording artists, there is clearly a natural aversion to the current “way” of music marketing.
The aversion in me is a lingering bit of insecurity from the not-enough-mind-virus that whispers, “what if you’ve been delusional the entire time and it’s all just an insecure projection of a 9th grader eating lunch alone in a bathroom stall.” - it's endlessly fascinating how the obstacle is usually the way.
Not much in life is truly black or white but rather some shade of grey. Perhaps this is also true of the interplay between free will and destiny.
That is, “destiny” encompasses the general themes of your unique you-ness, and free will determines the infinite ways by which these themes are explored for better or worse.
What is certain is the more these songs stay bottled up, the greater the tension in heart to set them free 🕊
10 years have been spent hibernating, incubating, studying, testing, validating, exploring, healing, creating, and becoming at least a little bit more conscious.
Now we send it.
In peace & playfulness,
Ryan 🏟🎶